This time last year

I was drowning in grief

I spent almost every waking moment analyzing

My heart ached and my mind raced

Days were spent working at a summer camp I couldn't give myself to

Each day felt like a rollercoaster ride of emotions

This time last year

I was lost and alone

I couldn't think of anyone who had gone through my specific turmoil to connect to

I cried and I prayed

I took long road trips with no destination in mind

My eyes took in the beauty that unfolded around me

And for a moment

I was comforted

This time last year

I began collecting crystals and using them as physical reminders

To let go

To heal

To believe in myself and my path

To continue to trust my intuition

To stay grounded

and to release

Today I am starting a new job

Today I step into a position working with young girls

Today I see the reason for last year's departure

Today I begin to understand a little bit of the why behind the trauma

Today I open up my heart to new situations that are

uncomfortable

scary

foreign

challenging

hopeful

exciting

adventurous

Today I say yes

Today I begin again