Remember that stress i was talking about?!

well, it's back in full attack mode!! I started at my new store today...Spent most of the day with anxiety about that. Thankfully, i already know quite a few of the partners at that store. And I have heard great things about everyone else.
I spent the first two hours feeling extremely awkward and uncomfortable...I didnt know where anything was, i dont know in what order they go when preclosing/cleaning, and i let my pride get the best of me a few times...transfering as a barista from a shift supervisor makes me feel like everyone is going to look at me and say, "oh, well she couldnt make it as a shift!" It may seem slightly ridiculous, but it's not completely off base either, because i'm sure i would have similar thoughts if another partner was in my position.
My goal is to go into the store with as much ease and grace as i can muster. i dont want to go in with ideas on how to "make the store better," or say things like, "well at my old store we did it this way." I want my addition to the store to be a minor blip on the radar...blending in is not easy for me. But i believe God has been working on giving me a humble spirit. I want to do my job, but stay a bit disconnected from partners. Investing too much emotionally can be extremely detrimental.
The thing that got me through my shift was the hemp bracelet i wear on my right wrist.
 
The bracelet is meant to represent all of the wonderful, beautiful qualities i poses. The bracelet was from an exercise in confidence building i did with the dance team i assistant coach. Looking at my wrist, i would remind myself that i am beautiful. i am smart. i am confident. i am outgoing. i am charming. i am funny. i am fit. i am all of the qualities i see in the women that i look up to. 
The next few weeks will prove to be tough. But with the support of my beautiful family and friends, and the reminder of my hemp bracelet, i will grow throughout this transition and change. 
as my dad reminded me tonight:
And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.
Romans 8:28




keep me in your prayers,
kgb

cleaning house is good for my spirit

so why, oh why, does it take so long for me to actually do it?!
Perhaps the build up of dishes in the kitchen, clothes on the bedroom floor, clutter in the living room, and papers on the desk is symbolic of the stress and anxiety accumulating in my spirit...purging my little apartment is like purging the clutter in my spirit...Only to make room for the new stress and anxiety and clutter;) and so the cycle continues.
but look at this beautifully clean closet!?:)


on the other hand...(dont worry, you'll get the awesome joke i just made in a few moments...read on friends)
there is something about red nail polish that just makes me melt inside. so sexy and feminine and empowering. I was on a hunt for a long time to get a red color that was similar to a polish that one of my favorite actresses, Julie Marie Berman, often wears. Check out her site, facebook, and twitter. She's an amazing woman and one day i will be more than just imaginary friends with her;) I got the chance to meet her last summer at a fan event:

Back to the red...Here's the best red i've found so far. It's OPI "O'Hare & Nails Look Great!"




Got any red or OPI colors that are your favorite?! Share the good news with me:)

xo, kgb

what is a saturday without a donut?!

Rode my bike to the farmer's market this morning:)) havent been able to do that for a while because i usually work saturday mornings. So refreshing:)

got some beautiful strawberries:

And i had to stop at the Donut Fair on my way home...;)
best apple fritters in town...seriously

Finishing off the day at work with Sam and Elizabeth. And my mom is bringing me lunch?! What an amazing mom i have;)

xo,
kgb


the better to see you with, my dear...

I went to a local thrift shop and picked up some awesome, old school glasses, punched out the lenses, and rocked a few different looks today:)
this pair is my favorite. They're a classic, cat eye look that makes me feel feminine and strong:)

Tonight was my last night working with my boy Sam at my current Starbucks. I love this kid! Such a goof ball. He makes me laugh so much. I knew we would have a great time with matching gigantic glasses...case in point:
uhhh....?!

this awesome mug is courtesy of bryce and nick b. They got it for me for my birthday this year. I use it on every shift, and it makes me soooo happyyy

Just your local starbucks baristas, lookin cute and posing for the camera...;)

Ended the night with some muuuch needed girl time with elizabeth(: love that girl

Kind of feeling somber tonight...lots on my mind about my current work situation...trying to figure out where God wants to use me and grow me in all of this.
That being said, our song for the night is a cover by Sara Bareilles, In Your Eyes.





love, 
kgb