The Universe is Conspiring For You


One of my yoga teachers says, "The Universe is conspiring for you, not against you." So often we think we're being "tested" by God. But I don't think God tests us. I choose to think that things are working in a way that is supposed to challenge us, but also uplift us. These "tests" show us the strength we have within that we might not otherwise have been witness to. 



It feels very vulnerable and scary to put yourself out there into the Universe and trust that things will work out in your favor eventually. I felt nervous and self-conscious posting last week on my Instagram that I'm available for photoshoots. It felt presumptuous to assume my work is good enough to gain the attention of others, and then to have someone pay me for it. 

But, as it so often does, the starts aligned and I found myself encouraged and surprised by the interest that post received. I spent an afternoon last week with Caroline. We met as new coaches for Girls On The Run Sacramento and have spent the last three months taking a rowdy, sassy, and endearing group of 3rd-5th grade girls through the GOTR program. 




Caroline is a writer and was looking for new content to include on both her website and Instagram. Her enthusiasm for the whole process was contagious. She is a natural goof and has very little shame in making a fool out of herself. I envy people with these traits-to not worry so much about what others think of you must be very freeing. 



I'm so grateful for the opportunity to push myself-both emotionally in offering my services, and technically in photographing someone other than myself or the trips that I go on. And even if Caroline is the only client I book, I know that had I not spoken up, had I not taken that leap of trust and faith in the process, I never would have felt this particular pride and excitement.

xxo

Put It All Out There


Being a new photographer, I have a lot of hesitation in putting myself out there to potential (read: paying) clients. I worry about my skill level. I wonder about my professionalism in securing a location and being able to produce content that the client is excited about. I'm unsure of what I should initially charge. Is my equipment "fancy" enough... 



Most of all, I think I'm afraid of putting myself out there and getting no response. But this week on good ol' Instagram I posted about being open for portrait gigs and the Universe gave me a sweet little kiss on the forehead and gave me several responses. 



No doubt the self-questioning will persist. But this little vote of confidence has me grateful and pumped. (With that being said, feel free to reach out through email at kellygboylan@gmail.com, or Instagram to inquire about working together!).


xxo


What Are You Passionate About?


I'm still struggling with answering the inevitable question when you meet someone new, "So what do you do for a living?" Because honestly right now I feel like a broken record talking about how frustrated I am to still be working as a substitute teacher. I don't want to come across as a Debbie Downer. I also don't want to come across as entitled or selfish. I am thankful that I have a job, and somewhat of a steady income. I know millions out there have it worse off than I do. 


I remember talking to someone about an "elevator pitch." It's the pitch someone comes up with to convey what you are most passionate about within the amount of time you'd be riding in an elevator with a stranger. 



So instead of leading with being a substitute teacher, I've decided to lead with what I'm most passionate about, and where I see myself working. In my recent trip to D.C. my cousin pointed out to me how important it is to put what you want there out in the Universe. You never know what could come from a two minute conversation with a stranger. I'm finding out more and more that this whole job hunt and career building comes from networking, knowing someone who knows someone, and then putting yourself out there. 


Moving forward, instead of answering that dreaded question with what I do, I'm going to start answering with what I'm passionate about (which is adolescent development and girls' self-esteem and health and wellness, for anyone reading this right now with connections to girl groups, junior high or high schools, nonprofits, etc...!)

xxo

Arlington National Cemetery

While back in Washington D.C. last week my mom and I made it over to the Arlington National Cemetery. It was a humbling experience, to say the least. I felt such a sense of respect and reverence for everyone buried there, and everyone else who has served my country. Because of this, I didn't take many shots. It felt too intrusive to photograph most of it, like the changing of the guards at the tomb of the unknown soldier. I hope I was able to capture this sense of pride and reverence in the few shots that I did get.








With so much gratitude for the life that I live,
xxo

I've Got Your Back feat. Heather Roussos


Heather and I first met years ago through Gamma Phi Beta. I know, the two of us in sorority is a bit contrary to who we each are today. But years ago, as we both struggled to find ourselves, we were introduced through greek life. 

Although we met there, our friendship didn't form until we connected through yoga years later. I had dropped sorority within my first year, and as I came to find out, she dropped shortly there after as well. But we both found a community and connection to yoga. And that's one thing I love about this practice. 

Heather is a badass bitch who works tirelessly to learn more about yoga, and then in turn share that knowledge and passion with others. Read on the hear more from Heather on yoga, feminism, and passion.


What is a recent book or article that you’ve read that has challenged your thinking, inspired you, or changed you?
A couple months ago I read The Ramayana. I had heard the stories of it here and there from my teacher, but I had never read it cover to cover. But about six months ago I dived into it. It’s teachings of dharma and love and purpose are inspiring. It’s impacted my living and my teaching. It’s rich in passion and adventure and chivalry, these things that I love. It’s super romantic as well, with this deep undercurrent of “you’re here to live out your purpose.” It was a beautiful reminder that I’m just meant to put one foot in front of the other and trust that whatever is in front of me is meant to be there, and I’m meant to do the work and let my path unfold.

Who is an influencer in your life?
My teacher Stephanie Snyder is the epitome of grace and devotion. In my career there are a lot of examples of different teachers, and I’m always so proud when I send people to her Instagram or class or website. She is everything I want to embody: grace, devotion, honor, compassion, and empathy. She’s so humble and such a beacon of togetherness and community, without the competition. That’s something I hadn’t experienced before. Her concern is in the dharma, and love, and showing up and doing the practice of yoga.

How do you balance that grace and humility you spoke of with the business side as a self-employed teacher and businesswoman?
Not everyone does what I do full time, because it’s hard. I just had to get to the point of not feeling bad for charging money for the services I’m giving. I want to be sustainable. And I know that if my students could see all of the work behind the curtain, they’d want me to be comfortable and happy and content, so that I can show up and serve them. I really acknowledged all the work I do as a teacher, and all of the money I’ve put in to my own education and trainings, and from there I set my prices.

Equal exchange is big for me. And not just monetarily, it’s energetically and emotionally as well. I’ve learned to leave a situation if I don’t feel there’s an equal exchange. I used to stay out of the fear of not having enough money or the thought of losing exposure to then later fill up workshops or trainings. I got to the point where it was sucking the life out of me.


What does feminism mean to you?
Feminism is being fiercely equal to our male counterparts. It feels like a common sense thing to me. Since I was a little girl I was a tomboy. I think part of that came from growing up with my dad, who is Greek and very traditional and incredibly sexist. I grew up feeling like I needed to prove that I was just as good as my brother. I never understood why he saw boys and girls as being more or lesser than the other. Equality is something I just felt innately. I think I was born with a soul that had to overcome obstacles of separateness, because it’s been easy for me to see the sameness in everyone. So feminism to me is standing up for equality with fierceness. It means standing up for my fellow women when I feel like they’re being oppressed. And it also means living my life in a way that when others see it they see a strong, independent human being.

Do you have a favorite quote or mantra that you try to live your life by?
“I’m doing the best I can with what I have.” The way my spiritual teacher Monica taught it to me is that even when we think we’re not doing our best, in the moment we are. And if we knew better, we’d do better. So when I mess up, I just remind myself I’m doing my best with what I have and what I know.

My second favorite mantra is twofold: “I’m sorry,” and “Thank you.”

What are you most passionate about?
I am most passionate about freedom. And I don’t necessarily just mean freedom from oppression, but more freedom from the things that keep you separate from your self. I teach that passionately through yoga. I want to remind people that there’s more to life than work and monetary success. Freedom comes in small moments of joy between friends, or taking a walk without your phone. Freedom comes from turning off all the outer voices and listening to the inner voice. I want to help people learn to be happy and content.

How will you spread this lifestyle of freedom and contentment?
Teaching it, living it, sharing it…that’s why I’m so open when I teach. I talk about my own experiences a lot, even things most people don’t usually share in that context. Because I know we’ve all done things we’re not proud of. No one really talks about it outright though.


Finish this sentence: I am _____________ .
I am strong.

Heather's got your back.
xxo